I wanted...

I wanted to marry you...

I wanted to grow old with you

I wanted to live in a tiny house and have only you, because you it's all I ever needed

I wanted to tell our children how strong our love is

I wanted to know who won the bet about our baby being a girl or a boy.

I wanted to burn your dinner and watch you eating it with a fake grin on your face.

I wanted to watch horrible suppy films with you, knowing you won't make a big deal out of me crying at them.

I wanted to introduce you at my dead as the man I love.

I wanted to take our dog for a walk together.

I wanted to get mad at you for coming late from work.

I wnated to dance with you at our wedding day.

I wanted to fall asleep in you arms for the rest of our lives.

I wanted to come home from work and have you meet me at the door with an ice-cream.

I wanted you to watch me graduate from the Academy.

I wanted to listen to you and my mother arguing over silly things at the table.

I wanted to hold your hand watching the first sunrise together.

I just wanted you, but I guess sometimes we don't get what we want.

I wanted all ... and I have nothing.

Vis

Poate intr-o zi mi se va implini si visul asta.

De fapt, singurul care a mai ramas...

Si stiu ca daca o sa muncesc, o sa reusesc.

Poate intr-o zi nu va mai fi doar un vis

Este tot ce imi doresc.

Mi-am promis ca o sa reusesc si asa o sa fac.

Incepem de la zero.

Zambet

Sentimentul pe care il ai cand iti zambeste cineva nu se poate descrie. E ca atunci cand esti atat de fericit incat iti vine sa canti si sa dansezi pe strada, ca atunci cand asculti o melodie ce iti aminteste de cele mai frumoase momente din viata ta, iar pielea ti se face de gaina, ca atunci cand iti dai seama ca cineva se gandeste la tine, sau cand stai intins pe iarba si simti cum te incalzeste soarele.

Eu am facut o persoana draga mie sa zambeasca in cele mai neplacute momente.Cea mai buna modalitate este sa incerci si tu. Haide! Zambeste-mi! Make me happy with your smile.

Noua

9 secunde de viata

9 clipe pline de speranta.

9 cuvinte spuse, nesoptite,

9 alte ganduri innegrite.

9 nopti de insomnie,

9 ore petrecute-n inertie.

9 zambete la momentul potrivit,

9 vorbe aruncate cand erai tampit.

9 ani de tacere si rabdare,

9 minute pentru ruinare.

9 carti citite intr-o vara-ntreaga,

9 scrisori pentru ca el sa-nteleaga.

9 grade afara, iar eu tremur,

9 opinii care ma fac sa ma cutremur.

9 poezii scrise in ultimul hal

Si 9 septembrie... intr-un final.

Sentimente de toamna

Ma sperie toamna. Ma apasa. Ma umple de nostalgie si ma zapaceste cu amintirea vremurilor bune. Ploaie ei nu e linistitoare si calda, ea nu face altceva decat sa trezeasca la viata mortii, sa readuca in suflete chinuri de mult uitate, chinuri cu masti hideoase si aroma de viata irosita. Se innegreste cerul cu soare visceral, iarba cu miros de smoala si norii cu forme de demoni. Nu ma lasa sa visez. Stoarce din mine bucati din inima, le amesteca cu putina duritare si le serveste la rece. Ma asterne pe frunze colorate in nuante seci si ma acopera cu gri. Imi refuza dreptul la caldura ucigatoare si imi interzice sa mai vad marea, in toata frumusetea ei. Urasc faptul ca marea ramane singura, inghetata, neconsolata, precum un copil orfan, uitat de toti. Ah cat de cruda si nepasatoare ! Striveste totul, ucide iluzii, alimenteaza suparari si hraneste depresii.

Stiu, stiu, draga mea, nici mie nu-mi place toamna.

Nu uita

Nu uita ca esti o fiinta deaosebita, ca esti unica.

Nu cauta sa fii ca altii; incearca sa fii tu.

Nu-i asculta pe cei care-ti contesta deciziile.

Mergi pe drumul pe care l-ai ales si nu privi inapoi cu regret.

Nu uita sa-ti asumi riscuri pentru a-ti indeplini visele

Adu-ti aminte ca este mereu timp sa schimbi drumurile in viata.

Acorda-ti timpul necesar pentru a-ti da seama ce vrei cu adevarat.

Nu uita ca din fiecare greseala vei invata lectii importante.

Fii multumit de felul in care esti.

Esti cea mai scumpa fiinta de pe pamant.

I Can

I can live without you, without my angel. I don't need anything, just my lonely demon life, with fire, agony and pain. I'm always in love with the wrong thing. Maybe a demon will fit to me. I need no angles, 'cause angels come and go, but a demon who hates you, will hate you until the end. I need no angles. I need no love. How much power love gives you to destroy someone! So, who wants to be my demon and hate me for life?

Memories...

You may go... But I still want to fall down with you in the very furthest depths. You may leave... But I still have the memories of you forever.

No matter what you do to me, somehow I still love you:) And if the only option I had was to lose you, then I would prefer death instead.

Sometimes, I look in the mirror and I really hate you. I hate what you have done, I hate what are you doing and I hate what you are going to do. Sometimes, I look in the mirror and I prey and beg you'll never stop.

Am scris niste povestioare in ultima vreme si am postat cateva fragmente din ele. Poate intr-un viitor apropiat o sa le postez intregi. Enjoy!

[and I am still waiting]

Bosquito - Tu esti iubita mea

Tu esti iubita mea, cu parul de tei

Soarele a rosit, s-a simtit rusinat

De spleandoarea ochilor tai

Eu sunt iubitul tau si aripi imi cresc

Al meu suflet e treaz, tu m-aduci la extaz

Si traiesc doar ca sa te privesc.

Conexiuni - Mai ramai putin

Mai ramai putin, te rog

Este cea din urma seara

Efemera ca un nor

Vraja n-o lasa sa piara

Lasa-ti parul sa-l alint

Sa-mi insir in mana salbe

Zbor de vise ce nu mint

In plutiri de ape albe

Mai lasa-mi-te-o zi

Emiliana Torrini - If you go away

For what good is love

Without loving you?

Can I tell you now

As you turn to go

I'll be dying slowly

'Till the next hello.

Scorpions - Still Loving You

Your pride has build a wall, so strong

That I can't get through

Is there really no chance

To start once again?

I'm still loving you...

Muse - Neutron Star Collision

Our love would be forever

And if we die, we die together

Glen Hansard - Falling Slowly

I'm painted black

You have suffered enough

And warred with yourself

It's time that you won

Sonata Arctica - Tallulah

I lost my patience once, so do you punish me?

I'll always love you, no matter what you do

I'll win you back for me, if you give the chance

But there is once thing you must understand

Bosquito - Femeia

Cinse se hraneste cu zilele tale

Insa fara ea esti ca plaja fara soare?

Cine te seduce pentru-a mia oara

Cu privirea dulce, dulce de fecioara?

Cuprinde-o in brate si devine fiara

Da, devine fiara, da, devine fiara!

Syrocket Love - Goodnight

You like the chase, you like the thrill

But it kills, and kills, and kills

Not one time did it cross your mind

That it's over now

Iris - Baby

Umbra noastra se asterne in trecut

Nimeni nu era ca noi

Cand ne-am cunoscut

Ne vom pleca de ploi si prin apus

Ca totul este bine, iar noi vom fi doar fum

Directia 5 - Am nevoie de tine

Am nevoie de tine, cand ma trezesc

Am nevoie de tine, sa pot sa visez

Am nevoie de tine, sa ma asculti

Am nevoie de tine, sa nu ma uiti

HIM - Join Me In Death

Won't you die tonight for love

Baby, join me in death

This life, ain't worth living !!

Bon Jovi - Always

This Romeo is bleedin'

But you can't see his blood.

Is nothing but some feelings

That this old dog kicked up

It's been raining since you left

Now I'm drownin' in the flood

You see, I've wlayas been a fighter

But without you, I give up

Now I can't sing a love song

Like the way it's meant to be

I guess I'm not that good anymore

But baby, that's just me.

And I, will love you, baby, always

And I'll be there forever and a day, always

I'll be there 'till the stars don't shine

Till the heaven bursts and the words don't rhyme

And I know, when I'll die, you'll be on my mind

And I love you, always

Now the pictures that you left behind

Are just memories of a different life

Some that made us laugh, some that made us cry

One that made you have to say goodbye

What I'd give to run my fingers through your hair

To touch your lips, to hold you near

When you say your prayers, try to understand

I've made mistakes, i'm just a man

[...]

if you told me to cry for you, I could

if you told me to die for you, I would

Take a look at my face

There's no price I won't pay

To say these words to you.

[...]

Missing you

Missing you is like ripping a part of my body and not knowing when it will be put back into place, like going to bed and hoping that I will still be whole in the morning, like giving up my heart and soul in order to keep my limbs, like hopelessly waiting around and hoping that my heart won't excape my ribcage in order to search for you, like jumping off a cliff hoping that my shoulders will bcome strong wings, like sleeping on shards and dreaming that my back is resting on feathers, it's mind-wreacking, it's soul-draining, it's painful.

Because my body will never be whole again, because I will be left with nothing, because my heart will leave me for you, because my wings will never grow, because the shards will tear me back and because ... because I love you!